After a weekend of refletion and change of attitude I'm feeling much better and have got things back on track, hope this lasts though.
Good day in work today also on my work getting stuck in now. Oh it's sunny and warm in central park in NY I have just been informed by WNYC radio station in New York. Yes I experimenting with my iTunes.
Shame it's bloody freezing here in Barry and it's trying to snow. Spoke to my freind in Spain and it's Sunny and 20 degrees well I'm gutted.
I think it's time to up sticks and move over to the house in Spain full time. BRING IT ON.
I'm not really concentrating on this at the mo I'm trying to hold down three conversations at once which is proving beyond me so if this post reads funny please excuse me.
Had enough of that radio station they are boring. Any way this is not going so well so I'll leave this post for today and continue tomorrow.
Monday, March 13, 2006
Sunday, March 12, 2006
Drawing lines
Just had some disappointing news which on a personal basis at this time in my life is not a bad thing, remember I bought www.librautomotive.co.uk and was merging my company with another to make one big multi branded company well...
It's off, Talking to the senior staff & Directors today I have come to the conclusion that it would not be in my interest to continue to run the business, there seems to be a lot of politics between certain people and I just don't want that crap.
So what have I done. Simple I am selling off the stock and closing the business down. 1 months notice has been given to staff at the meeting and the others will get theirs in the morning.
Why don't people work together why do they insist on trying to be the boss, I just don't get it. Surely a small team of people can work together and produce some good quality work. All I asked of them was to draw up a re-launch plan for the new business and pursue new buying opportunities which I even supplied the contacts. Oh no they have their own ideas lets not listen to the new owner lets do it our way which produced Zip nothing.
Ah well such is life be putting this down to experience and moving on.
Had a late Sunday lunch in a country pub today to celebrate my Step Grandmothers 80th birthday, very nice meal and conversation was pretty good as well. Nice to be reminded what you got up to in your teens NOT! why do Grand parents and parents enjoy telling you all about the stuff you wanted to forget. he he
Anyway more on this and more after I have drunk a few bottles of wine (Red) I need some after today. Here's a tip NEVER AGREE TO A MEETING ON A SUNDAY.
It's off, Talking to the senior staff & Directors today I have come to the conclusion that it would not be in my interest to continue to run the business, there seems to be a lot of politics between certain people and I just don't want that crap.
So what have I done. Simple I am selling off the stock and closing the business down. 1 months notice has been given to staff at the meeting and the others will get theirs in the morning.
Why don't people work together why do they insist on trying to be the boss, I just don't get it. Surely a small team of people can work together and produce some good quality work. All I asked of them was to draw up a re-launch plan for the new business and pursue new buying opportunities which I even supplied the contacts. Oh no they have their own ideas lets not listen to the new owner lets do it our way which produced Zip nothing.
Ah well such is life be putting this down to experience and moving on.
Had a late Sunday lunch in a country pub today to celebrate my Step Grandmothers 80th birthday, very nice meal and conversation was pretty good as well. Nice to be reminded what you got up to in your teens NOT! why do Grand parents and parents enjoy telling you all about the stuff you wanted to forget. he he
Anyway more on this and more after I have drunk a few bottles of wine (Red) I need some after today. Here's a tip NEVER AGREE TO A MEETING ON A SUNDAY.
Saturday, March 11, 2006
On reflection
Umm sometimes in our lives we need to take stock of what we have been doing, recently I have been wrapped in a situation (all of my own doing) which I now see as selfish and wrong and in doing so I believe has ruined a friendship that could have been good for both parties involved.
Sitting here reflecting on what I have done I realise why I am at such a low point in my life, it's all down to me. I have forgotten the reasons why I am married and have a child, I had dreams and I am realising that I have failed to attain most of them and for some unknown reason I am looking for excuses to get out of the situation.
How do I move forward, well I think it's to forgive people who have let me down, and let go of all the hurt I feel for what really should have been dealt with a few years back and not letting it eat away until I become a SAD unhappy man.
We need to reflect back on the reasons why we got married, who the person is what you liked about that person. If there is nothing there then that's the end time to move on, but if your memories are of better times then surely we can ignite that flame.
I find children although I have only one and I love her loads it's hard, always wanting attention making their needs come first but I remember someone once telling me you married your wife not your children and thinking on that subject I believe it's true, would you rather commit 100% to your child and neglect your partner or try and balance both as marriage really is a full time occupation you need to work at it 24/7 and only now am I realising this.
I always complained about being bored, frustrated and alone but really that was an excuse for not making changes, routine sets in and life becomes dull, boring and depressing but only I can change that only I can become positive again and change the routine agreed that certain tasks in life have to remain the same but leisure time should be fun and interesting.
Anyway I hope that writing all this down will help me to move forward in a more positive forgiving way. And strengthen my life. I hope that my sudden realisation is not too late to mend some almost burnt bridges but only time will tell.
Time to change, Time for action, Time for fun, Time to get my life back.
Sitting here reflecting on what I have done I realise why I am at such a low point in my life, it's all down to me. I have forgotten the reasons why I am married and have a child, I had dreams and I am realising that I have failed to attain most of them and for some unknown reason I am looking for excuses to get out of the situation.
How do I move forward, well I think it's to forgive people who have let me down, and let go of all the hurt I feel for what really should have been dealt with a few years back and not letting it eat away until I become a SAD unhappy man.
We need to reflect back on the reasons why we got married, who the person is what you liked about that person. If there is nothing there then that's the end time to move on, but if your memories are of better times then surely we can ignite that flame.
I find children although I have only one and I love her loads it's hard, always wanting attention making their needs come first but I remember someone once telling me you married your wife not your children and thinking on that subject I believe it's true, would you rather commit 100% to your child and neglect your partner or try and balance both as marriage really is a full time occupation you need to work at it 24/7 and only now am I realising this.
I always complained about being bored, frustrated and alone but really that was an excuse for not making changes, routine sets in and life becomes dull, boring and depressing but only I can change that only I can become positive again and change the routine agreed that certain tasks in life have to remain the same but leisure time should be fun and interesting.
Anyway I hope that writing all this down will help me to move forward in a more positive forgiving way. And strengthen my life. I hope that my sudden realisation is not too late to mend some almost burnt bridges but only time will tell.
Time to change, Time for action, Time for fun, Time to get my life back.
Thursday, March 09, 2006
I'm back
Well I'm still alive even though the past few days have been rather an emotional rollercoaster, I seem to be happy one minute and then really depressed the next, realising that something I want I will never have which has been on my mind for a while, although today I started to get my head around the whole thing, which means the gloves are now off and I can now have a laugh.
Flirt well my girl you aint seen nothing yet!! I want to have a good laugh from now on so watch out babe I'm coming!
Work was pretty dull and I have struggled all week to get motivated but nothing new there then I here you say. I have had a good evening with my work started to put together a project that has to be ready for the end of the month I have canibalised an application I built in 2004 to the vary day how spooky is that. So I'm more positive now. Hense the more up beat posting.
See it is work that gets me down when things are starting to go into place I feel great, but when the pressure is on I go down hill rapidly.
Anyway watched a great fil the other night You've got mail
I love that film soo much, anyway with my new PC still in factory settings mode I decided to change some of the sound effects namley the new mail sound to guess what...... Meg Ryan saying "Three little word You've got Mail" it's great click here to hear it also there are tones of others to download for free.
I love the ending when she says "I secretly hoped it was you" ahhhhh!!
Oh yeah also my daughter Megan "Megs" is named after Meg Ryan we were watching Courage under fire the night we had a water leak and we had not decided on a girls name how cool, didn't realise at the time that Megan had become a very popular name, ah well it's still a cool name for a cool little girl.
Ha she has just said it "Three little words You've got Mail" only junk though nothing of any real interest, I don't get many emails these days only work stuff HINT HINT also I noticed that a ceratin person is no longer reading these, not that I surprised but COME ON get with the programme this is the best and most unpopular blog on the net.
I was saying the other night how I don't really talk these days, well I am trying to get out of the habit so I'm reading the local paper (I have it delivered every day but never read it) I find news depressing nothing nice happens any more tell me it's not true, I'm going to dtart a newspaper that is only filled with GOOD POSITIVE news bet I become a millionaire over night! yeah and my cousin was Rupert Murdock.
I have stats attatched to this blog now so I can see where my visitors are coming from so watch out I may pick on one of you soon, just for kicks.
OK weather, now you can't have a positive blog without a weather report so here it is.
CARDIFF Showers 9/4 degrees (They don't want to be caught out so give a choice we can decide for ourselves whether it's bloody freezing or not. As our foreign visitors find out here in Wales IT ALWAYS RAINS!!!
Well I'm off to go and watch Hotel Babylon (Only a modern day version of Cross Roads) he he see ya soon.
Flirt well my girl you aint seen nothing yet!! I want to have a good laugh from now on so watch out babe I'm coming!
Work was pretty dull and I have struggled all week to get motivated but nothing new there then I here you say. I have had a good evening with my work started to put together a project that has to be ready for the end of the month I have canibalised an application I built in 2004 to the vary day how spooky is that. So I'm more positive now. Hense the more up beat posting.
See it is work that gets me down when things are starting to go into place I feel great, but when the pressure is on I go down hill rapidly.
Anyway watched a great fil the other night You've got mail
I love that film soo much, anyway with my new PC still in factory settings mode I decided to change some of the sound effects namley the new mail sound to guess what...... Meg Ryan saying "Three little word You've got Mail" it's great click here to hear it also there are tones of others to download for free.
I love the ending when she says "I secretly hoped it was you" ahhhhh!!
Oh yeah also my daughter Megan "Megs" is named after Meg Ryan we were watching Courage under fire the night we had a water leak and we had not decided on a girls name how cool, didn't realise at the time that Megan had become a very popular name, ah well it's still a cool name for a cool little girl.Ha she has just said it "Three little words You've got Mail" only junk though nothing of any real interest, I don't get many emails these days only work stuff HINT HINT also I noticed that a ceratin person is no longer reading these, not that I surprised but COME ON get with the programme this is the best and most unpopular blog on the net.
I was saying the other night how I don't really talk these days, well I am trying to get out of the habit so I'm reading the local paper (I have it delivered every day but never read it) I find news depressing nothing nice happens any more tell me it's not true, I'm going to dtart a newspaper that is only filled with GOOD POSITIVE news bet I become a millionaire over night! yeah and my cousin was Rupert Murdock.
I have stats attatched to this blog now so I can see where my visitors are coming from so watch out I may pick on one of you soon, just for kicks.
OK weather, now you can't have a positive blog without a weather report so here it is.
CARDIFF Showers 9/4 degrees (They don't want to be caught out so give a choice we can decide for ourselves whether it's bloody freezing or not. As our foreign visitors find out here in Wales IT ALWAYS RAINS!!!
Well I'm off to go and watch Hotel Babylon (Only a modern day version of Cross Roads) he he see ya soon.
Tuesday, March 07, 2006
It's Hard
Very short post tonight, just to say I am finding it hard. 'D' will understand.
I have agreed to back off a situation to allow things to take it's course and I am finding it very hard at the moment I hope I can get through it.
Bye xx
I have agreed to back off a situation to allow things to take it's course and I am finding it very hard at the moment I hope I can get through it.
Bye xx
Monday, March 06, 2006
Life is changing
Well sorry but could not put a post up yesterday as this system was down, but Saturday night was a revelation, I had a good chat with Just, the first in a long time, I explained I was not happy and what I felt was the best course of action. As you can imagine it was not the most joyous of occasions but no raised voices only calm talking.
Sunday was hard a hard day I was so low I could easily have done something stupid, but I took Megs to the park so she could practise her inline skating and play on the swings and slides of course.
Today well I could not get my head into work at all, some news hit me sideways a bit and I could not really concentrate on the tasks in hand. I'm not going to go into any details here.
I have worked really hard tonight done 3 hours Admiral work and just about to make a start on one of my projects so only a short one tonight. Bye for now xx
Sunday was hard a hard day I was so low I could easily have done something stupid, but I took Megs to the park so she could practise her inline skating and play on the swings and slides of course.
Today well I could not get my head into work at all, some news hit me sideways a bit and I could not really concentrate on the tasks in hand. I'm not going to go into any details here.
I have worked really hard tonight done 3 hours Admiral work and just about to make a start on one of my projects so only a short one tonight. Bye for now xx
Saturday, March 04, 2006
Sat at home on a Saturday!!
Saturday evening and sat here doing my typing therapy, listening to Five star Rain or Shine, well 'D' has a lot to answer for, FIVE STAR me never....
The day has been filled with DIY again, only painting and little jobs here and there but time goes so quickly these day's now I understand (Hang on music stopped , that's better), what my mum used to say don't wish your life away as time goes so quickly.
Watching a TV programme and watching kids sing songs and the winner was a hit back in 1983 over 20 years ago and it felt like yesterday, I remember when I was twenty and thought forty was ages away and now only 3 years to go, god where has time gone. As you can tell I'm thinking back to my teenage years it has to be the record, I tried to ring my mate Dave this evening as I really need to get out and have some drinks, but he is not around so I'm stuck here with my thoughts which as you know is dangerous at the best of times.
It's official well according to some websites I have been looking at, I am still suffering depression as if by my postings you could not tell, not sure what I am going to do about it yet though, I have not and will not take tablets I prefer to fight it I beat panic attacks and anxiety well most of it, the worst has gone, so if I can beet that I can beat depression.
I know 'D' will be saying finally he's admitting he is not 100%!! well I know and I will get sorted some how.
Meg's is staying over her friends house tonight which is nice but if we had prior warning I would have made sure I was out this evening having some fun not sat here typing this. Ah well never mind. Sunday tomorrow not sure what I am going to do yet the garden needs sorting so may make a start on that depending on the weather, today was nice and sunny Meg's went to the park to practise her skating alas I could not join her as I was up to my eyes in paint, so no pics.
Anyway that's it for today hopefully I will be back tomorrow for more exciting instalments from this guy in Barry, feeling sorry for himself as always. xx
The day has been filled with DIY again, only painting and little jobs here and there but time goes so quickly these day's now I understand (Hang on music stopped , that's better), what my mum used to say don't wish your life away as time goes so quickly.
Watching a TV programme and watching kids sing songs and the winner was a hit back in 1983 over 20 years ago and it felt like yesterday, I remember when I was twenty and thought forty was ages away and now only 3 years to go, god where has time gone. As you can tell I'm thinking back to my teenage years it has to be the record, I tried to ring my mate Dave this evening as I really need to get out and have some drinks, but he is not around so I'm stuck here with my thoughts which as you know is dangerous at the best of times.
It's official well according to some websites I have been looking at, I am still suffering depression as if by my postings you could not tell, not sure what I am going to do about it yet though, I have not and will not take tablets I prefer to fight it I beat panic attacks and anxiety well most of it, the worst has gone, so if I can beet that I can beat depression.
I know 'D' will be saying finally he's admitting he is not 100%!! well I know and I will get sorted some how.
Meg's is staying over her friends house tonight which is nice but if we had prior warning I would have made sure I was out this evening having some fun not sat here typing this. Ah well never mind. Sunday tomorrow not sure what I am going to do yet the garden needs sorting so may make a start on that depending on the weather, today was nice and sunny Meg's went to the park to practise her skating alas I could not join her as I was up to my eyes in paint, so no pics.
Anyway that's it for today hopefully I will be back tomorrow for more exciting instalments from this guy in Barry, feeling sorry for himself as always. xx
Friday, March 03, 2006
Thank Crunchie it's Friday
Well I'm back again for another therapeutic typing session, got a shock today as I walked into the office a beautiful young lady was sat in my friends desk. after a double take it was my friend 'D' doing overtime. What a pleasant surprise that was. Alas I was in a meeting when she left so couldn't say good bye...
Carried out a lot of work today and I even forgot to plug in my iPod that's how busy I was, but after 4 hours as usual got up walked out heading for the car. No School run on Fridays so popped into B&Q to pick up some paint and a yard brush as I plan to do a little painting (Not much just a little) and start to clean the garden up ready for the spring. For a bit of fun I may take a before & after photo and put here. he he.
Strange thing happened in B&Q though a shop assistant turned and said to me cheer up right out of the blue. This chap must have been in his 60's and I was surprised by that, then I started thinking am I really that sad that people now turn around to me and say cheer up. Oh my god I have a problem.
I smiled to take an MSN picture recently and I must admit it did feel really strange and it hurt!! Saying that though the other day when I smiled at 'D' that really felt good, but I can't manage to reproduce it ah well a one off I suppose.
Anyway what exciting things are going to happen this weekend, well I certainly not going to Ikea, for one they take money out of my wallet whilst I'm not looking and I have had meatballs far too often so no Ikea. umm well that means I'll be staying at home, that's it I'll stay at home and make some meatballs doh! I have a car actually 2 but I reckon it could drive it's self on the weekends, Ikea non stop and then Tesco. If my car saw the M4 it would probably pull over and either have a panic attack or go on strike.
I promise myself that I will book a hotel for the weekend you know nice family break and all that, well I get to the booking stage and make an excuse why we can't go. Luckily I don't tell the others of my great idea as that would be suicidal.
Anyway I'm rambling again, had a Chinese tonight it was nice not brilliant but nice, not doing any work tonight not that I have done much all week I think I'll right this week off as a total waste of time.
I just may load up Huntsville and have another go, as 'D' is finding out it is very addictive. Sorry hun!!
Anyway have a great weekend what ever your up to and I'll be back soon (Well tomorrow probably) xx
Carried out a lot of work today and I even forgot to plug in my iPod that's how busy I was, but after 4 hours as usual got up walked out heading for the car. No School run on Fridays so popped into B&Q to pick up some paint and a yard brush as I plan to do a little painting (Not much just a little) and start to clean the garden up ready for the spring. For a bit of fun I may take a before & after photo and put here. he he.
Strange thing happened in B&Q though a shop assistant turned and said to me cheer up right out of the blue. This chap must have been in his 60's and I was surprised by that, then I started thinking am I really that sad that people now turn around to me and say cheer up. Oh my god I have a problem.
I smiled to take an MSN picture recently and I must admit it did feel really strange and it hurt!! Saying that though the other day when I smiled at 'D' that really felt good, but I can't manage to reproduce it ah well a one off I suppose.
Anyway what exciting things are going to happen this weekend, well I certainly not going to Ikea, for one they take money out of my wallet whilst I'm not looking and I have had meatballs far too often so no Ikea. umm well that means I'll be staying at home, that's it I'll stay at home and make some meatballs doh! I have a car actually 2 but I reckon it could drive it's self on the weekends, Ikea non stop and then Tesco. If my car saw the M4 it would probably pull over and either have a panic attack or go on strike.
I promise myself that I will book a hotel for the weekend you know nice family break and all that, well I get to the booking stage and make an excuse why we can't go. Luckily I don't tell the others of my great idea as that would be suicidal.
Anyway I'm rambling again, had a Chinese tonight it was nice not brilliant but nice, not doing any work tonight not that I have done much all week I think I'll right this week off as a total waste of time.
I just may load up Huntsville and have another go, as 'D' is finding out it is very addictive. Sorry hun!!
Anyway have a great weekend what ever your up to and I'll be back soon (Well tomorrow probably) xx
Thursday, March 02, 2006
World Book Day
My mind is running wild at the moment with different things, a lot is stemming from really struggling to get this project together, I know I have mentioned it before but I think that is what is causing me to think about stupid stuff.
The day was let's say drab, the usual things going on in to the office I managed to clear January's emails and requests. No one around really to talk too, just did my 4 hrs and got up and left.
Anyway 'deep sigh' I have brought this on myself and only I can deal with it.
Megs had a fun day in school today as it's World Book Day and her school love to have fun with it so all the children had to go to school in their PJ's. Here's a pic of her before she left this morning.
The day was let's say drab, the usual things going on in to the office I managed to clear January's emails and requests. No one around really to talk too, just did my 4 hrs and got up and left.
Anyway 'deep sigh' I have brought this on myself and only I can deal with it.
Megs had a fun day in school today as it's World Book Day and her school love to have fun with it so all the children had to go to school in their PJ's. Here's a pic of her before she left this morning.
I'm now sat here it's 8.05pm and I have done very little on my work, I just can't get into it. Ah well there is always tomorrow. Thanks 'D' for your friendship it means a lot, and I promise to stop spooking you, well I'm going to really try from now on. ;) xx
Wednesday, March 01, 2006
St Davids Day
Dydd Gwyl Dewi hapus . (Happy St. Davids day in English).
Some facts about St. David:
St David's Day has been a national festival in Wales since the 18th century.
Many people will wear either a daffodil or a leek, which are both symbols of Wales.
The other Welsh symbol, Y Ddraig Goch (the Red Dragon, Wales's national flag).
And here's Megs sporting the national costume.
Megs had a great time in school today as they have a big celebration and competitions, also she sat in the car talking Welsh which was different, I can speak some welsh but don't get the opportunity to use it that much but it's the type of language once you know the basics it's quite easy to hold a fairly decent conversation. We finally went back to English at 6pm. Only because there is not a word for your Pizza is ready.
Down loaded a song that 'D' was listening to tonight do you remember the 80's group Five Star
well I downloaded the song Rain or Shine here are the lyrics, I listened to it over and over and it takes me right back to the good times. The words are very poignant at the moment.
The office was good today I had a wicked smile off 'D' which made my day, again simple things make such a difference. Work was OK although a lot of running around the office today sorting out users PC's, makes a change from sitting at my desk with my iPod.
I'm really struggling to get my head back into work when I get home, I start off at around 4pm and stop for tea around 5pm. Back to it around 6.30 until 10pm but my working habit has gone. I have spent the past few hours clicking in and out of one of the projects not really doing anything.
One project has to be delivered by 31st March and I have not really started it, I'll get there I'm sure.
I have switched off from the family at the moment got my headphones on and Madonna is singing in my ears, her new album confessions on a dance floor is great.
Anyway, time to push on lots to do but at this moment I feel like jumping in the car and going for a long drive. I'm not depressed or anything quite the opposite I just want to get out and hit the road at speed. You know what I mean driving at full speed with the wind in my hair.
Oh before I go I have been asked by a special friend to clarify a post I put up last Sunday when I said "Love well there is no such thing what ever anyone tells you", I love my daughter Megan very much and would protect her with my life. I was referring to adult type love, oh I'm going to dig another big hole here so I'll leave it at that.
Time to go now so Dydd Gwyl Dewi hapus and I hope you like the picture of Megan.
Some facts about St. David:
St David's Day has been a national festival in Wales since the 18th century.
Many people will wear either a daffodil or a leek, which are both symbols of Wales.
The other Welsh symbol, Y Ddraig Goch (the Red Dragon, Wales's national flag).
And here's Megs sporting the national costume.
Megs had a great time in school today as they have a big celebration and competitions, also she sat in the car talking Welsh which was different, I can speak some welsh but don't get the opportunity to use it that much but it's the type of language once you know the basics it's quite easy to hold a fairly decent conversation. We finally went back to English at 6pm. Only because there is not a word for your Pizza is ready.
Down loaded a song that 'D' was listening to tonight do you remember the 80's group Five Star
well I downloaded the song Rain or Shine here are the lyrics, I listened to it over and over and it takes me right back to the good times. The words are very poignant at the moment.
The office was good today I had a wicked smile off 'D' which made my day, again simple things make such a difference. Work was OK although a lot of running around the office today sorting out users PC's, makes a change from sitting at my desk with my iPod.
I'm really struggling to get my head back into work when I get home, I start off at around 4pm and stop for tea around 5pm. Back to it around 6.30 until 10pm but my working habit has gone. I have spent the past few hours clicking in and out of one of the projects not really doing anything.
One project has to be delivered by 31st March and I have not really started it, I'll get there I'm sure.
I have switched off from the family at the moment got my headphones on and Madonna is singing in my ears, her new album confessions on a dance floor is great.
Anyway, time to push on lots to do but at this moment I feel like jumping in the car and going for a long drive. I'm not depressed or anything quite the opposite I just want to get out and hit the road at speed. You know what I mean driving at full speed with the wind in my hair.
Oh before I go I have been asked by a special friend to clarify a post I put up last Sunday when I said "Love well there is no such thing what ever anyone tells you", I love my daughter Megan very much and would protect her with my life. I was referring to adult type love, oh I'm going to dig another big hole here so I'll leave it at that.
Time to go now so Dydd Gwyl Dewi hapus and I hope you like the picture of Megan.
Tuesday, February 28, 2006
Now what day are we on......
Shrove Tuesday for those who love pancakes! I cooked some last year but Megs prefers the ready made bought type so this year she had those, for breakfast with syrup, lunch plain and evening meal with Strawberry syrup. Her face said it all.
Some religious stuff if you didn't already know Shrove Tuesday is the day before Ash Wednesday which is the first day of Lent.
Shrove Tuesday gets its name from the ritual of shriving that Christians used to undergo in the past. In shriving, a person confesses their sins and receives absolution for them.
the traditional story is that Pancake races were thought to have begun in 1445. A woman had lost track of the time on Shrove Tuesday, and was busy cooking pancakes in her kitchen.
Some religious stuff if you didn't already know Shrove Tuesday is the day before Ash Wednesday which is the first day of Lent.
Shrove Tuesday gets its name from the ritual of shriving that Christians used to undergo in the past. In shriving, a person confesses their sins and receives absolution for them.
When a person receives absolution for their sins, they are forgiven for them and released from the guilt and pain that they have caused them.
In the Catholic or Orthodox context, the absolution is pronounced by a priest.
This tradition is very old. Over 1000 years ago.the traditional story is that Pancake races were thought to have begun in 1445. A woman had lost track of the time on Shrove Tuesday, and was busy cooking pancakes in her kitchen.
Suddenly she heard the church bell ringing to call the faithful to church for confession. The woman raced out of her house and ran all the way to church; still holding her frying pan and wearing her apron.
There I'm full of useless facts!
Finally got my direct access to the Office today and I have tried it out and it works, not sure now how this will pan out as the managers are aware of the possibilities of getting hold of me outside working hours, I may have to switch the thing off we'll see.
Very busy times in the office at the moment lots of teams moving around and I have to change settings on the systems which takes for ever so I can see the next week or so just carrying out admin work on their computer systems oh joy! I have already had an email from LC at 7.05pm asking me a question so it's started already.
'D' passed over some munchies today which was very nice of her xx little things that people do make such a difference to the day you know it doesn't have to be big it's the thought that counts.
Megs is getting all excited as it's St. David's day tomorrow and she has her new costume to wear to school as they have their Eisteddfod tomorrow.
Anyway that's enough from me today. see ya soon xx
Monday, February 27, 2006
Life is a peach
Well I still here after my outburst yesterday, I'm currently listening to this American chap trying to teach me how to code. Well this is how interesting he is I'm writing my daily blog!
I just don't get what he is trying to tell me, I'm only on lesson six and I don't understand it. I have listened to this lesson three times and still can't get my head around it. I suppose I will have to re listen over and over again until I get it.... six months later I'll probably get it.
Anyway back in the office today and it was a good day, managed to catch up on what I missed last week due to the audit, also I managed to see 'D' and that was good well it's always good to see 'D'. She makes me feel so happy just with her smile. ahh slushy stuff, time to move on as I have spooked the girl far too many times this year and I promised not to do it again.
I'm stuck for words here....... I'm all dried out, cannot think of anything to put down except the usual stuff which is starting to sound a bit like ground hog day.
Oh my....
Dave was on MSN today he is not working this week seems the agency he is with don't need him, not sure if I would stay with an agency that has no work for you.... scratching around for stuff to say still.
Ummm took on my brother today to nope that's god where have my thoughts gone.....
Hey you know this is a typical me! get something in my head and cannot get rid of it, sorry.
I have nothing interesting to say not that I say anything interesting anyway.
I just don't get what he is trying to tell me, I'm only on lesson six and I don't understand it. I have listened to this lesson three times and still can't get my head around it. I suppose I will have to re listen over and over again until I get it.... six months later I'll probably get it.
Anyway back in the office today and it was a good day, managed to catch up on what I missed last week due to the audit, also I managed to see 'D' and that was good well it's always good to see 'D'. She makes me feel so happy just with her smile. ahh slushy stuff, time to move on as I have spooked the girl far too many times this year and I promised not to do it again.
I'm stuck for words here....... I'm all dried out, cannot think of anything to put down except the usual stuff which is starting to sound a bit like ground hog day.
Oh my....
Dave was on MSN today he is not working this week seems the agency he is with don't need him, not sure if I would stay with an agency that has no work for you.... scratching around for stuff to say still.
Ummm took on my brother today to nope that's god where have my thoughts gone.....
Hey you know this is a typical me! get something in my head and cannot get rid of it, sorry.
I have nothing interesting to say not that I say anything interesting anyway.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
Not a good one to read sorry
Hello Sunday and goodbye Sunday!! well that's how I feel today, not one of my best days although this year I have not had many best days.
Currently updating my iPod with new tunes from MADONNA and sorry is blasting my office to hell but who cares, I don't that's the mood I'm in. I'm alive and this music is good and I love it!!
Everything else can GO TO HELL!! That's it I'm off, my heart is gone and I don't give a shit, life is a bitch sometimes, and this is a moment that I have been waiting for to express myself. I feel like shit and I don't love this life anymore, Love well there is no such thing what ever anyone tells you. MY LIFE is CRAP yeah it sounds so cool that I have my own business and that I work part time but is that it! work work nothing makes me happy anymore.
I have nothing left to live for. Wake up to the same old shit and what the fuck for. Pay the bills, smoke some fags eat & sleep well that's great for a while then the novelty wares off. Ah that's better I needed to get that of my chest.
Now the big question how the hell do I get out of this rut. It's not nice feeling low all the time, I said to a friend last week, a year ago if I had what I have today I would be over the moon, working part time, owning my own business which is not costing me nothing to run etc. but it's not doing anything for me, I have no buzz anymore.
Nothing I'm doing is doing it for me. Here's one, today I have made £250 via the internet businesses, but it has not moved me, I don't feel anything why not? a year or two ago I was jumping up and down if I made £25 on a Sunday.
Someone got the magic answer?
Anyway that's enough ranting for today, now onto the normal stuff. Well I sat through the Terminal and to be honest I thought it was slow, a little boring and I struggle to give it 6/10, not one I would add to my DVD collection.
Tesco today for the weekly shop, I had this idiot with a trolley that insisted on leaving his trolly in the middle of the isle every time he went to collect an item, he was always in front of me and everyone was getting annoyed as he was obstructing everyone. You know the type I mean, well me being in the mood I am today I went walkies with his trolley, that's right I left our trolley with the girls and I took his for a walk around the store took it right back to the entrance and left it there. Caught up with the girls and saw this idiot standing in the middle of the isle scratching his head. Well I had to dissappear before I wet myself.
Watched Wales V Ireland and what a crap game that was I'm not going to
embarrass myself by posting the score all I can say is go see for yourself well OK it was IRELAND 31 WALES 5 and I am now going to become an exile.
Currently updating my iPod with new tunes from MADONNA and sorry is blasting my office to hell but who cares, I don't that's the mood I'm in. I'm alive and this music is good and I love it!!
Everything else can GO TO HELL!! That's it I'm off, my heart is gone and I don't give a shit, life is a bitch sometimes, and this is a moment that I have been waiting for to express myself. I feel like shit and I don't love this life anymore, Love well there is no such thing what ever anyone tells you. MY LIFE is CRAP yeah it sounds so cool that I have my own business and that I work part time but is that it! work work nothing makes me happy anymore.
I have nothing left to live for. Wake up to the same old shit and what the fuck for. Pay the bills, smoke some fags eat & sleep well that's great for a while then the novelty wares off. Ah that's better I needed to get that of my chest.
Now the big question how the hell do I get out of this rut. It's not nice feeling low all the time, I said to a friend last week, a year ago if I had what I have today I would be over the moon, working part time, owning my own business which is not costing me nothing to run etc. but it's not doing anything for me, I have no buzz anymore.
Nothing I'm doing is doing it for me. Here's one, today I have made £250 via the internet businesses, but it has not moved me, I don't feel anything why not? a year or two ago I was jumping up and down if I made £25 on a Sunday.
Someone got the magic answer?
Anyway that's enough ranting for today, now onto the normal stuff. Well I sat through the Terminal and to be honest I thought it was slow, a little boring and I struggle to give it 6/10, not one I would add to my DVD collection.
Tesco today for the weekly shop, I had this idiot with a trolley that insisted on leaving his trolly in the middle of the isle every time he went to collect an item, he was always in front of me and everyone was getting annoyed as he was obstructing everyone. You know the type I mean, well me being in the mood I am today I went walkies with his trolley, that's right I left our trolley with the girls and I took his for a walk around the store took it right back to the entrance and left it there. Caught up with the girls and saw this idiot standing in the middle of the isle scratching his head. Well I had to dissappear before I wet myself.
Watched Wales V Ireland and what a crap game that was I'm not going to
embarrass myself by posting the score all I can say is go see for yourself well OK it was IRELAND 31 WALES 5 and I am now going to become an exile.Saturday, February 25, 2006
Happy days...........
What a dull day, watched the film Seabiscuit this morning, got up and sat for three hours watching a movie, now that's how to spend a Saturday morning. The film was really good great story it was true, I would recommend a viewing for motivation if nothing else. I understand it had 7 Oscar nominations. The book was written by Laura Hillenbrand, this book is now on my wish list I feel.
Then got ready and went to.... wait for it..... Ikea for lunch and to get some
storage boxes, needed 3 of them so that's £60 gone, food OK I'm getting fed up with meatballs and gravy, come to that I'm getting fed up with Ikea. Although my friend Dave, the one who walked out of his last job due to stress, well he started work in Ikea last Tuesday.Didn't do much else today, I have not been feeling that good, I had a turn last night that brought back all the old feelings so have not been 100% but I'll survive or at least I hope I will.
Will be settling down to watch another movie in a bit, Terminal I think it's called the one with Tom Hanks & Catherine Zeta-Jones, I understand what the film is about but not sure if it will keep me seated all the way through.
Anyway I stumbled across a website earlier this is cool make sure you click the before button to reveal how much air brushing goes on with the stars click here
I went through all the pictures and I thought of all those people who believe what they see in magazines is real. Megs sat with me and went through them and even she commented and fully understood what they were doing. I wish more parents would show their children what people really look like rather than seeing glossed up pictures in the magazines.
Anyway that's enough from me tonight, going to grab a glass of red wine and try and chill in front of the T.V
See ya xx
Friday, February 24, 2006
End of
Well it's Friday already and I just managed a 2nd day at the office, completed the audit had the meeting and a smile from people in the meeting as I gave them good news. They were happy anyway.
Didn't do much at the office today some IT changes and yes 'D' just sitting here I remembered I suppose to do something for you, oo err, but it's slipped my mind so you'll have to remind me next week.
Talking of 'D' I have not seen or heard from her since earlier in the week. Hope your OK?
Decided that I will buy the company and have instructed solicitors to handle the paperwork etc. so that's one less thing to worry about, commissioned a graphic designer to come up with ideas for re branding both companies and I have also asked Libra's creative team to do the same so I can see what they are capable of.
I see I have a very busy time ahead, but it takes my mind away from other stuff I suppose. I will still be working at the office part time for the foreseeable future anyway, I enjoy the crack there which you don't get at my home office and I am not travelling over 60 miles a day to go the Libra's offices no siree!
So the weekend is here nothing special planned really, now the bathroom is all but finished I need to find another project to get into.... 'D' any suggestions?
Ah well all quiet on the MSN front. no one to talk to so I may as well call it a day. Have a good one xx
Didn't do much at the office today some IT changes and yes 'D' just sitting here I remembered I suppose to do something for you, oo err, but it's slipped my mind so you'll have to remind me next week.
Talking of 'D' I have not seen or heard from her since earlier in the week. Hope your OK?
Decided that I will buy the company and have instructed solicitors to handle the paperwork etc. so that's one less thing to worry about, commissioned a graphic designer to come up with ideas for re branding both companies and I have also asked Libra's creative team to do the same so I can see what they are capable of.
I see I have a very busy time ahead, but it takes my mind away from other stuff I suppose. I will still be working at the office part time for the foreseeable future anyway, I enjoy the crack there which you don't get at my home office and I am not travelling over 60 miles a day to go the Libra's offices no siree!
So the weekend is here nothing special planned really, now the bathroom is all but finished I need to find another project to get into.... 'D' any suggestions?
Ah well all quiet on the MSN front. no one to talk to so I may as well call it a day. Have a good one xx
Thursday, February 23, 2006
Dilemma
Well back at the office today and guess what, they covered my desk with balloons, banners and gave me a card and the new Madonna album and a huge slab of chocolate cake which of course I split between many people, I did think of 'D' but alas she is off now until Monday so I ate her piece sorry :( I will make it up to you though.
A sad day for 'D's manager her dog had to be put down today so I gave her a larger piece of the chocolate cake and told her this was to cheer her up which did make smile. (I don't really get on with her but I hate to see anyone sad and chocolate cake does help in times of sadness.)
Managed to find the missing 200K in the audit I' doing and have until 1pm tomorrow to complete the job but it's looking good so far, god I'm worth every penny to that place, also had LC down to say a belated happy birthday and she walked away with chocolate cake as well. Also the connection from here to the office has been agreed so won't be long before I'm connected 24/7 to the office oh joy.
Any way I'm rambling now, to my dilemma. I had a meeting today with my old business colleague, at the services I may add and I bought the tea's, do I sound unhappy! I'm not honest well maybe a little he asks to meet and I buy the refreshments....
Anyway Philip and I have worked together since Brenton days and I developed a website business for him which is doing OK nothing special but top of all the search engines under certain key words and is getting in excess of 400 'new' visitors a day, well he is aware I'm making MATWL official and signing all the documents with the solicitors and accountants and has asked if I would consider buying www.librautomotive.co.uk which has a turnover in excess of 1 Million per year for a £1. The reason is that I did not get much money from him for doing the work (2 Years) and his land business is taking up a lot of his time.
He feels that MATWL is better suited to handle the internet business as I, sorry MATWL already owns www.carpartauctions.co.uk and with the two other contracts he feels MATWL is in a very strong financial position.
Well I have negotiated that all staff remain on board with www.librautomotive.co.uk and that MATWL will take control from 1st April as long as the following items are done:
1/ New products are found and put on the site by 31st March. (not much movement over the past 3 months)
2/ The creative team prove that they can 'Create' (Give a presentation on the Re-branding to MATWL)
3/ Libra Automotive Ltd to Underwrite the internet business for 2 years (They will fund any financial short fall for 2 years, at the moment it's self financing but who knows over the next 2 years).
4/ The current manager becomes a director and I'm offering 20% of MATWL (but must prove over the next month she can handle the work load.)
5/ The Marketing manager to join the board of MATWL as Marketing director with 20% stake of MATWL
Leaving me with 60% of the company, but MATWL becomes the holding company for www.carpartauctions.co.uk and www.librautomotive.co.uk
My dilemma, sounds stupid I know but MATWL is a small family firm with little hassle, no personnel to look after, no bills just me really chandelling about 30K worth if work this year. Do I really want to take control of a company that I was involved with from the very beginning but have not really worked with for a while.
Am I ready as a person to be responsible for staff and HR and all that other stuff?
In short am I ready for this?
A sad day for 'D's manager her dog had to be put down today so I gave her a larger piece of the chocolate cake and told her this was to cheer her up which did make smile. (I don't really get on with her but I hate to see anyone sad and chocolate cake does help in times of sadness.)
Managed to find the missing 200K in the audit I' doing and have until 1pm tomorrow to complete the job but it's looking good so far, god I'm worth every penny to that place, also had LC down to say a belated happy birthday and she walked away with chocolate cake as well. Also the connection from here to the office has been agreed so won't be long before I'm connected 24/7 to the office oh joy.
Any way I'm rambling now, to my dilemma. I had a meeting today with my old business colleague, at the services I may add and I bought the tea's, do I sound unhappy! I'm not honest well maybe a little he asks to meet and I buy the refreshments....
Anyway Philip and I have worked together since Brenton days and I developed a website business for him which is doing OK nothing special but top of all the search engines under certain key words and is getting in excess of 400 'new' visitors a day, well he is aware I'm making MATWL official and signing all the documents with the solicitors and accountants and has asked if I would consider buying www.librautomotive.co.uk which has a turnover in excess of 1 Million per year for a £1. The reason is that I did not get much money from him for doing the work (2 Years) and his land business is taking up a lot of his time.
He feels that MATWL is better suited to handle the internet business as I, sorry MATWL already owns www.carpartauctions.co.uk and with the two other contracts he feels MATWL is in a very strong financial position.
Well I have negotiated that all staff remain on board with www.librautomotive.co.uk and that MATWL will take control from 1st April as long as the following items are done:
1/ New products are found and put on the site by 31st March. (not much movement over the past 3 months)
2/ The creative team prove that they can 'Create' (Give a presentation on the Re-branding to MATWL)
3/ Libra Automotive Ltd to Underwrite the internet business for 2 years (They will fund any financial short fall for 2 years, at the moment it's self financing but who knows over the next 2 years).
4/ The current manager becomes a director and I'm offering 20% of MATWL (but must prove over the next month she can handle the work load.)
5/ The Marketing manager to join the board of MATWL as Marketing director with 20% stake of MATWL
Leaving me with 60% of the company, but MATWL becomes the holding company for www.carpartauctions.co.uk and www.librautomotive.co.uk
My dilemma, sounds stupid I know but MATWL is a small family firm with little hassle, no personnel to look after, no bills just me really chandelling about 30K worth if work this year. Do I really want to take control of a company that I was involved with from the very beginning but have not really worked with for a while.
Am I ready as a person to be responsible for staff and HR and all that other stuff?
In short am I ready for this?
Wednesday, February 22, 2006
The end of my short break
Ah well my few days off are coming to an end and the office is calling me. Not literally by the way. My last day was quite slow, just cannot get motivated to do anything at the moment.
Was planning to go into Cardiff to browse some shops and ask 'D' to lunch but the weather here is sooo cold and damp that I decided to stay in and do some cleaning. Also I didn't expect 'D' to agree to lunch on such short notice.
Due to the lack of motivation I emailed 'D' to ask her to help with the vacuum cleaning, not telling you what the response was but lets say I had no chance.
Cleaned the lounge from top to bottom, done a small amount of work not much though. Picked megs up from Cheerleader club and it dawned on me I was turning into a taxi, remember those days when your parents complained "What do you think I am a Taxi service" well the thought ran through my mind at that moment I have another 10 years or so of this type of service, toying with installing a meter and charging her for the privilege, one way of getting the money I give her as pocket money back. (Only joking by the way I'm not that cruel honest!)
Well it's time to get changed and face the bitter wind to pick up Wayne for our weekly game of Squash I think I will have to beat him this week as it was 2-0 last week.
Oh yeah, big fire around the corner from us tonight local drinking hole went up in flames, it's only been open about a month after a major refit. Insurance job springs to mind!! but I didn't say that.
Anyway time to push off, have a great few days of 'D' and you know where to find me if you want a quick chat xx
Was planning to go into Cardiff to browse some shops and ask 'D' to lunch but the weather here is sooo cold and damp that I decided to stay in and do some cleaning. Also I didn't expect 'D' to agree to lunch on such short notice.
Due to the lack of motivation I emailed 'D' to ask her to help with the vacuum cleaning, not telling you what the response was but lets say I had no chance.
Cleaned the lounge from top to bottom, done a small amount of work not much though. Picked megs up from Cheerleader club and it dawned on me I was turning into a taxi, remember those days when your parents complained "What do you think I am a Taxi service" well the thought ran through my mind at that moment I have another 10 years or so of this type of service, toying with installing a meter and charging her for the privilege, one way of getting the money I give her as pocket money back. (Only joking by the way I'm not that cruel honest!)
Well it's time to get changed and face the bitter wind to pick up Wayne for our weekly game of Squash I think I will have to beat him this week as it was 2-0 last week.
Oh yeah, big fire around the corner from us tonight local drinking hole went up in flames, it's only been open about a month after a major refit. Insurance job springs to mind!! but I didn't say that.
Anyway time to push off, have a great few days of 'D' and you know where to find me if you want a quick chat xx
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
Everything is so quiet
Well it's just about Tuesday although only a few minuets left, the house is so still as the others are fast asleep except me, today I have accomplished very little, not sure where the day has gone really. Started up here at around 6.30pm and still going at it. I'm getting really worried that the big project is too much for me, a little self doubt has crept in. A;though I have two years to complete and it's only at the project state.
I have read so much information about this project that I'm losing my way so this evening I decided to step back and re-look at it, even downloading some video files from Microsoft just to make sure I'm on the right track, you see the project is a complete operating system for a medium sized company and the decisions made now can make or break the whole thing.
Sorry I'm going into far to much detail.
Megs is enjoying her cheer leader course that she wanted to do, although being alone for five hours a day is quite unreal, knowing that I should be working rather than pottering around the house.
Anyway last day tomorrow of doing very little back at the office on Thursday and I know I'll have a shed load of emails and tasks to do, also got a meeting Friday which I have only completed 50% of the project we are having a meeting about so my work is cut out for the 4hrs I'm in on Thursday.
For 'D' I did send an email into the office not sure if you got it or not I may try and send another tomorrow just to say hi and I'm still alive only just mind. Playing Squash again tomorrow evening so I may blog a little earlier.
I think I'll take my Christmas gift vouchers and pop into Cardiff tomorrow and spend them. Not sure what on but as they are Virgin vouchers I don't have a choice on the shopping venue.
Ah well it's very late and time for me to switch this thing off for another day.
To my special friend I miss you xx
I have read so much information about this project that I'm losing my way so this evening I decided to step back and re-look at it, even downloading some video files from Microsoft just to make sure I'm on the right track, you see the project is a complete operating system for a medium sized company and the decisions made now can make or break the whole thing.
Sorry I'm going into far to much detail.
Megs is enjoying her cheer leader course that she wanted to do, although being alone for five hours a day is quite unreal, knowing that I should be working rather than pottering around the house.
Anyway last day tomorrow of doing very little back at the office on Thursday and I know I'll have a shed load of emails and tasks to do, also got a meeting Friday which I have only completed 50% of the project we are having a meeting about so my work is cut out for the 4hrs I'm in on Thursday.
For 'D' I did send an email into the office not sure if you got it or not I may try and send another tomorrow just to say hi and I'm still alive only just mind. Playing Squash again tomorrow evening so I may blog a little earlier.
I think I'll take my Christmas gift vouchers and pop into Cardiff tomorrow and spend them. Not sure what on but as they are Virgin vouchers I don't have a choice on the shopping venue.
Ah well it's very late and time for me to switch this thing off for another day.
To my special friend I miss you xx
The new Bathroom reveal
Well here they are a few snaps of the DIY bathroom. I can't find any before pictures so hard to measure the results by but before it was a mess.
This view is as you enter the room.
The new jet bath. It's so cool you have to have one!
W.C and towel radiator, the W.C is one of those water saving tanks only takes 15 sec to re fill. Sounds like the loos on a plane.
The new shower area, this part was hard as I had to dig down 4ft to relay all the pipes in this corner but now well worth the effort.
The bathroom cabinet from ikea but modified to fit at the end of the bath.
The sink
And finally the flooring, first time have have laid floor tiles but easy to do so will be doing again probably in the kitchen.
This view is as you enter the room.
The new jet bath. It's so cool you have to have one!
W.C and towel radiator, the W.C is one of those water saving tanks only takes 15 sec to re fill. Sounds like the loos on a plane.
The new shower area, this part was hard as I had to dig down 4ft to relay all the pipes in this corner but now well worth the effort.
The bathroom cabinet from ikea but modified to fit at the end of the bath.
The sink
And finally the flooring, first time have have laid floor tiles but easy to do so will be doing again probably in the kitchen.
Monday, February 20, 2006
Miss a day or two!
See I missed another day. I must have some sort of illness there has to be an illness for missing every other day! well Saturday night was cool drank far to much red wine but again no hang over on Sunday, I have found one thing about getting older though I can't lie in anymore. Come 7.30 I'm awake I try and force myself to stay put but by 8am I aching all over and have to get up. You know that feeling when we were teenagers and at 1pm in the afternoon we just had to get up as we felt like crap. Well that's the feeling 8am every morning!!
Sunday was a quiet day really, went shopping but didn't really have my brain in gear and spent a mass of money on nothing I even went through the receipt which I don't normally do. Our shopping for the week is normally £80 yesterday it was £114 and for the life of me I can't work out what the extra went on.
Why can't they bring back Sundays all shops closed I would have saved £114. Ah well that's life I suppose.
Can't remember what else I did yesterday. Oh yes I can downloaded this game you have to download and try it it is so addictive, megs and I were playing it until 10pm last night it's really good for children although you will have to help with some of the items.
We started playing the game at 3pm and only left the PC for tea, megs was back on it today with her friends and two hours later they were still addicted to it.
Well today was wired, up at 7.30am got megs ready as she decided to go on a cheer leaders course this week, so got sandwiches and stuff ready for her then at 10am drove her to Barry comp for her marathon 5.5hr training session.
I have not been alone in the house for ages and didn't know myself, took all the old bathroom & rubble etc. to the local tip, had to scrub the car after that inside and out, scrubbed the kitchen floor had a right busy day, sat down for the first time at 5pm whilst the spag bol was cooking, and now I'm on the PC doing this blog avoiding doing some work.
I will be doing the pics of the bathroom tomorrow and will post them here as I think I can make the project public. You'll have to let me know what you think.
Well that's it from me today, glad to hear from you 'D' I thought I'd have to go a whole week without hearing from you.
Sunday was a quiet day really, went shopping but didn't really have my brain in gear and spent a mass of money on nothing I even went through the receipt which I don't normally do. Our shopping for the week is normally £80 yesterday it was £114 and for the life of me I can't work out what the extra went on.
Why can't they bring back Sundays all shops closed I would have saved £114. Ah well that's life I suppose.
Can't remember what else I did yesterday. Oh yes I can downloaded this game you have to download and try it it is so addictive, megs and I were playing it until 10pm last night it's really good for children although you will have to help with some of the items.
We started playing the game at 3pm and only left the PC for tea, megs was back on it today with her friends and two hours later they were still addicted to it.
Well today was wired, up at 7.30am got megs ready as she decided to go on a cheer leaders course this week, so got sandwiches and stuff ready for her then at 10am drove her to Barry comp for her marathon 5.5hr training session.
I have not been alone in the house for ages and didn't know myself, took all the old bathroom & rubble etc. to the local tip, had to scrub the car after that inside and out, scrubbed the kitchen floor had a right busy day, sat down for the first time at 5pm whilst the spag bol was cooking, and now I'm on the PC doing this blog avoiding doing some work.
I will be doing the pics of the bathroom tomorrow and will post them here as I think I can make the project public. You'll have to let me know what you think.
Well that's it from me today, glad to hear from you 'D' I thought I'd have to go a whole week without hearing from you.
Saturday, February 18, 2006
It's my Birthday
It's my birthday yeah for me 37 years young! well a nice day, finishing touches to the bathroom had to try out the new candles and music, oh and the whirlpool bath, how relaxing was that!! spent an hour chilling in the bath. Being spoilt this evening the girls are taking me to an italian restaurant down the bay so looking forward to downing a few glasses of red wine.
Well I must say I'm gutted all my family have forgotten my birthday, My Mum god knows how she forgot she was there at the time, my Brother and my Sister. What can I say I thought it was bad enough KW forgetting my birthday but my own family!!
All the inlaws rememberd so got some cards on the shelf. Nevermind perhaps they thought better than to remind me I'm another year older.
Anyway, only a short one this evening as I'm off out. Hope 'D' had a nice day as I have not heard from her in a few days, I think I may have offended her with the Russian thing. It was only a joke honest!!
Anyway I may take those long awaited photos of the bathroom tomorrow and put up for you to see.
See ya soon xx
Well I must say I'm gutted all my family have forgotten my birthday, My Mum god knows how she forgot she was there at the time, my Brother and my Sister. What can I say I thought it was bad enough KW forgetting my birthday but my own family!!
All the inlaws rememberd so got some cards on the shelf. Nevermind perhaps they thought better than to remind me I'm another year older.
Anyway, only a short one this evening as I'm off out. Hope 'D' had a nice day as I have not heard from her in a few days, I think I may have offended her with the Russian thing. It was only a joke honest!!
Anyway I may take those long awaited photos of the bathroom tomorrow and put up for you to see.
See ya soon xx
Friday, February 17, 2006
Fiday blues
It's Friday and I'm boared, been working to hard and I'n now all burned out. It's only 8.15pm but that's it I'm calling it a day.
Office was busy doing the AWS audit, went to a meeting to discuss findings but could only report that only half the work is done, no probs they say we'll meet up again next Friday, great I say I'm away from the office now until Thursday! they comment I'm sure you'll have it done by friday, well this is a million pound account I'm trying to audit finish in 4hrs NO CHANCE!
Been trying to gather more info on a project I'm doing and it is really hard getting my thick head around this, I should have had a spec written up by now but only just found the software and servers to handle the work load.
Missed 'D' today, needed someone to talk too nothing major just needed a little lift if you know what I mean, I wonder if I'm getting the birthday blues... Oh that was it everyone forgot it was my birthday in the office. No dressed up desk, cake nothing. I dropped the hint at 2.30pm and his face was a picture, RF wiped the floor with him and then he comments that Lorna had emailed him to remind him it was my Birthday and he still forgot well that's says it all.
So not very happy. Need a PINT or two or three..... I may just go down now stick a CD on and drown my sorrows in a BOTTLE of red wine, save the glasses just drink out of the bottle.
Anyway my next post will be when I'm another year older but not quite 40!!
See ya soon xx
Office was busy doing the AWS audit, went to a meeting to discuss findings but could only report that only half the work is done, no probs they say we'll meet up again next Friday, great I say I'm away from the office now until Thursday! they comment I'm sure you'll have it done by friday, well this is a million pound account I'm trying to audit finish in 4hrs NO CHANCE!
Been trying to gather more info on a project I'm doing and it is really hard getting my thick head around this, I should have had a spec written up by now but only just found the software and servers to handle the work load.
Missed 'D' today, needed someone to talk too nothing major just needed a little lift if you know what I mean, I wonder if I'm getting the birthday blues... Oh that was it everyone forgot it was my birthday in the office. No dressed up desk, cake nothing. I dropped the hint at 2.30pm and his face was a picture, RF wiped the floor with him and then he comments that Lorna had emailed him to remind him it was my Birthday and he still forgot well that's says it all.
So not very happy. Need a PINT or two or three..... I may just go down now stick a CD on and drown my sorrows in a BOTTLE of red wine, save the glasses just drink out of the bottle.
Anyway my next post will be when I'm another year older but not quite 40!!
See ya soon xx
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Over worked
Well I think I'm now brain dead, I have worked really hard today even if I say so myself. Just set up a new server with MySQL and all the admin bits and I feel like I need 24 hours of sleep now, I'm still a little worried that one of the jobs I took on is a little beyond me so I may have to enlist some of my IT friends across the pond for some help & guidance.
Office was OK, KW was back in and my stress & anxiety returned so I can definitely say it's him, even though he did not say much, when he was away I had ZERO stress and anxiety. Can you really dislike a person that much that when they are in the same facility you react in such away?
What am I going to do about it, not sure.
Nice to hear from 'D' although a little brief but hey I'm not complaining, I would liked to have one of those eggs though!!
Gym at 6.30am well that is commitment, I'm in the shower that time certainly not in any frame of mind to do physical work, well not the gym anyway good on ya I say and rather you than me.
One day 'D' will look like one of those Russian disc throwers.... (You know I'm only joking don't you?) anyway on with my blog.
Megs is doing really well in school and is well ahead of her years she is now two years ahead in maths and one year ahead in English well done Megs, seems if they are ahead of the class they send them into other years classes to do their work. Although her handwriting is still not that good but seeing her maths book well I was impressed all workings out in the columns really neat figures and some of the maths was really hard.
I wondered why she was always doing mathematical diagrams on the computer and printing them off.
Anyway it's nine thirty and my iPod has just run out so it's time to shut down and go chill for a few hours before bed. Oh Squash I knew I'd forget that, well we picked up the pace last night but I lost 2-0 but hey it was fun and I'll have him next week. I love giving him the illusion that he is better than me only to thrash him the following week. Yeah right listen to me go on!
Office was OK, KW was back in and my stress & anxiety returned so I can definitely say it's him, even though he did not say much, when he was away I had ZERO stress and anxiety. Can you really dislike a person that much that when they are in the same facility you react in such away?
What am I going to do about it, not sure.
Nice to hear from 'D' although a little brief but hey I'm not complaining, I would liked to have one of those eggs though!!
Gym at 6.30am well that is commitment, I'm in the shower that time certainly not in any frame of mind to do physical work, well not the gym anyway good on ya I say and rather you than me.
One day 'D' will look like one of those Russian disc throwers.... (You know I'm only joking don't you?) anyway on with my blog.
Megs is doing really well in school and is well ahead of her years she is now two years ahead in maths and one year ahead in English well done Megs, seems if they are ahead of the class they send them into other years classes to do their work. Although her handwriting is still not that good but seeing her maths book well I was impressed all workings out in the columns really neat figures and some of the maths was really hard.
I wondered why she was always doing mathematical diagrams on the computer and printing them off.
Anyway it's nine thirty and my iPod has just run out so it's time to shut down and go chill for a few hours before bed. Oh Squash I knew I'd forget that, well we picked up the pace last night but I lost 2-0 but hey it was fun and I'll have him next week. I love giving him the illusion that he is better than me only to thrash him the following week. Yeah right listen to me go on!
Wednesday, February 15, 2006
Parents evening
Early blog today as I am seeing Meg's school teacher in a bit also playing squash with Wayne later so won't have time to do it.
Office was quiet again, KW was off on his travels to London where he was going I can't remember, got one email off him which was unusual but I'm not complaining. The rest of the time dealing with a audit job with AWS so that is taking up most of the time I'm in the office, 'D' I forgot to do those changes for you but will have them done before you get back on Monday.
Meg's open night at school tonight so seeing her teacher around 5 ish I'll put an update down tomorrow a little nervous as the problems we had a few weeks ago I Hope is all forgotten about.
It's nice and wet down here and got bloody soaked waiting in the play ground but hey who's complaining not all dads can do what I'm doing and spending a little extra time with the little one. She is currently behind me doing her home work, a busy little bee and is using the other PC far too efficiently for an 8 year old.
Anyway another gentle game of Squash tonight down at Cogan leisure with Wayne, he wanted to change venue as there is a nice bar at Cogan and we do like our drinks after a game (Orange Squash of course!).
Anyway that's enough from me today only 3 days before my birthday. Oh joy
Office was quiet again, KW was off on his travels to London where he was going I can't remember, got one email off him which was unusual but I'm not complaining. The rest of the time dealing with a audit job with AWS so that is taking up most of the time I'm in the office, 'D' I forgot to do those changes for you but will have them done before you get back on Monday.
Meg's open night at school tonight so seeing her teacher around 5 ish I'll put an update down tomorrow a little nervous as the problems we had a few weeks ago I Hope is all forgotten about.
It's nice and wet down here and got bloody soaked waiting in the play ground but hey who's complaining not all dads can do what I'm doing and spending a little extra time with the little one. She is currently behind me doing her home work, a busy little bee and is using the other PC far too efficiently for an 8 year old.
Anyway another gentle game of Squash tonight down at Cogan leisure with Wayne, he wanted to change venue as there is a nice bar at Cogan and we do like our drinks after a game (Orange Squash of course!).
Anyway that's enough from me today only 3 days before my birthday. Oh joy
Be my Valentine?
I'm missing days here, I'm sure I'm loosing the plot, what happened to Tuesday, ah I remember it was quiet in the Office, no one around on my pod, so stuck my iPod on and got my head down not physically mind, however being Valentines day I had to make sure my eCard was sent and a little pressie to my special friend which by her response was well received. Unfortunately I'm one of those sad gits who likes giving rather than receiving so I had a little buzz out of the day.
Listening to the radio in the morning and they were talking about St. Valentine forgot it was to do with soldiers who were secretly married by him but got found out and was beheaded. Now that's not fair is it!
Worked late again last night and was interrupted by my old friend Dave who rang me and kept me on the phone for an hour, seems he quit his job as it was too stressful, not being funny being an assistant manager of a shop is no where near as stressful to what I put up with every day in the office.
Dave mate get back to work and stress well these days that's part of life get on with it. I better get off this subject as I just can't get my head around what he has done.
Well that was Tuesday 'Valentines Day'
Listening to the radio in the morning and they were talking about St. Valentine forgot it was to do with soldiers who were secretly married by him but got found out and was beheaded. Now that's not fair is it!
Worked late again last night and was interrupted by my old friend Dave who rang me and kept me on the phone for an hour, seems he quit his job as it was too stressful, not being funny being an assistant manager of a shop is no where near as stressful to what I put up with every day in the office.
Dave mate get back to work and stress well these days that's part of life get on with it. I better get off this subject as I just can't get my head around what he has done.
Well that was Tuesday 'Valentines Day'
Monday, February 13, 2006
It's a hard day
Well it's been a hard one, both physically and mentally but I think I'll get my head around it.
Been updating this new PC and as I type .Net software is installing away ready for me to get into these projects. I am getting daily emails now from my two main contracts requesting different type of data needed so I really need to get my arse in gear.
Had a phone call from KW and he is really probing about my office work, I didn't go into to details the other night I forgot. Well I have been asked to work from home and KW is not happy about it so much so that he is making it very difficult as he is throwing obstacles in the way every day even when he is not in the office, but I'm on a mission now and not even he will get in the way.
Got an email from Bec today she is having a great time although she did suffer with a tummy upset for a few days but seems to be back fighting fit again, she is currently in Phuket, she will be there for a week learning how to Scuba dive. How jealous am I.
Anyway this software has finished loading up so I'd better get on with work.
Saturday, February 11, 2006
New PC whoopee
Busy day today, actually went out and got my new PC and what a power house it is, 200GB hard drive and using an AMD Athlon 64 3400 it's fast very fast and easy to use. Only took 25 mins to connect to the networks and get it firing on all cylinders.
Also went to ikea today for lunch and to get some bathroom furniture so I am spent out now!!
Megs is playing on her new PC well my old one but it's great for all her games and I can now look at restricting her internet access as she is always talking to her freinds via MSN.
Well not much else to say today, it's time for me to give this new PC a rest although I have only been on it for an hour or so.
'D' how is the holiday hunting going? changed your mind yet about letting me come as well?
Also went to ikea today for lunch and to get some bathroom furniture so I am spent out now!!
Megs is playing on her new PC well my old one but it's great for all her games and I can now look at restricting her internet access as she is always talking to her freinds via MSN.
Well not much else to say today, it's time for me to give this new PC a rest although I have only been on it for an hour or so.
'D' how is the holiday hunting going? changed your mind yet about letting me come as well?
Friday, February 10, 2006
Missed a day
Oops, forgot all about Thursday so two instalments tonight one now and one a little later. Squash well I went and took it easy had two games which the outcome was a draw. I felt much better after the game, it's true what they say about endorphins in the brain we need a dose now and again to get the body working properly again. Thursday was a good day office nice and quiet and scoffing flapjacks felt ill towards the end but who cares they were really nice and I did not go to the gym afterwards like some people mentioning no names! he he.
Megs and I went to the library to take back our books and CD's which was fun, oh I nearly forgot I bumped the car whilst parking outside the School only into a 55 plated BMW, the lady in the car was mortified so was I as I had not caused any damage!! oo how evil am I no really it was a small 1mph bump nothing major but enough.
Anyway I digress, picked up more books nothing interesting only research books, although Megs got carried away and took out 5 books most of them poetry. Megs loves poetry and is often sat next to me in the office doing her own poetry which is great but I don't manage to get much done due to her insisting in reading every line she manages to put down.
I picked up 3 CD's to put on my iPod don't laugh but I got Daniel Powter, K.D Lang and wait for it the sound track from Riverdance. Well is that a great album or what I have it now saved on the PC and I cannot stop listening to it. I do like Celtic music but this is great. A must for all music fans.
Anyway enough for now must go and pick up Megs from the in-laws but I will be back later for Fridays instalments and boy is there news here.
Megs and I went to the library to take back our books and CD's which was fun, oh I nearly forgot I bumped the car whilst parking outside the School only into a 55 plated BMW, the lady in the car was mortified so was I as I had not caused any damage!! oo how evil am I no really it was a small 1mph bump nothing major but enough.
Anyway I digress, picked up more books nothing interesting only research books, although Megs got carried away and took out 5 books most of them poetry. Megs loves poetry and is often sat next to me in the office doing her own poetry which is great but I don't manage to get much done due to her insisting in reading every line she manages to put down.
I picked up 3 CD's to put on my iPod don't laugh but I got Daniel Powter, K.D Lang and wait for it the sound track from Riverdance. Well is that a great album or what I have it now saved on the PC and I cannot stop listening to it. I do like Celtic music but this is great. A must for all music fans.
Anyway enough for now must go and pick up Megs from the in-laws but I will be back later for Fridays instalments and boy is there news here.
Wednesday, February 08, 2006
Revelations
Well I'm now a happy chappy, LC sat with me today running through what I do for the department, comments passed that I do things no one else can do within the department and they want more. Then they offered overtime working from home. Well am I chuffed that will push my income well above what I was earning full time with the other two contracts as well.
The only thing they don't want me to do is ring in one day and say that I'm working from home which I would not do.
Had a nice chat with 'D' today which was nice, wish we could talk more often what do they say "It's good to talk" well I'm writing this early tonight as I'm off in a minute to play squash, not looking forward to it as I'm sooo un fit at the moment, I have a slight problem when on the court I do get rather competitive. I must take it easy tonight.
Well that's enough excitement for one day. I'm now feeling more confident in what I do outside the office so is 2006 going to be my year? we'll see.
Tuesday, February 07, 2006
Not a good day today been really down, wish I knew why. Office was quiet caught up on all me emails so back to normal tomorrow with tones to do and only a few hours to do it in. LC has said that she will meet with me tomorrow to run through some stuff, we'll see. KW just got back from Madrid seems he enjoyed himself went to watch the Football Madrid won 4-0.
Had a laugh on the school run, when all us drivers park up to get the children it means only one car can go up or down the road at any one time, well this young girl basically drove up and was confronted by a line of 10 cars coming the other way. This girl freaked and I mean she FREAKED, she stopped the car and just sat there, a parent suggested she reversed back down the road to allow this ever growing line of cars to move. She flatly refused well after 5 mins everyone turned off their engines and got out of their cars, what a sight, by the time someone took control of the situation there were at least 20 cars in both directions.
It was us parents that got the thing moving, we all pulled off together kids all in, leaving this huge line in the middle of the road. Well what a laugh that was.